If only I could be Elizabeth

So I at the point in articling where I am asking myself, "is this it?"

I had a great trip to Calgary this weekend, and spent the entire drive listening to Pride and Prejudice on my laptop. Nothing like a long drive and great novel to remove oneself from the world (and on a highway nonetheless).

I have determined this weekend that Pemberly would suit me just fine.

So my question is thrown out to all the articling students that are reading this, either on facebook or my blog. Is this it? Are you content with this being it? If you don't feel comfortable giving a public answer, feel free to message me in private, and you're confidentiality will be respected. Here is what I am going through:

1. I work a lot. I have a large student loan. I feel as though I have jumped on a treadmill, running fast and not going anywhere.

2. I like the people in my office a lot, and for the most part, the work that I do. I do not like being the dumbest in the office.

3. I like my time off, but I hate that I think of work outside the office.

4. I like the structure of having a real job that is challenging and secure. I also feel trapped by the thought that I have attained my goal, and the situation I find myself in will last years.

So my question to you all: Now what?